Queen of my Domain

Seriously...... how do kids do this, at what point in your playing (when your supposed to be in bed going to sleep) do you think, I'm just gonna put my head down here for a minute?? Felicity fell asleep standing up!!

O.K. So just because I said that I felt like a pinball does not mean that everyone needs to treat me like that. After a very long day yesterday and the fact that I'm really not interested in eating proper food, Gage did not sleep well last night. And to add to it, Daniel informed me when he took his med's tonight that he had forgotten to take them yesterday morning. So between Gage and Daniel having seizures last night I got a whopping 3 and a half segregated hours. I'm tired, and frustrated and I have an extrememly short fuse, with no patience on top of that.

So I figured that having 4 kids would be a snap. I've heard that after 3 it's just a number that it's no more difficult. But I have to admit that I'm feeling very much like a pin ball most days. I go between, nursing Gage and stopping Felicity from whatever 2 year old trouble she has gotten her self into, then helping Rayann with homework.... back to Gage for a burp or a nurse... then back to Felicity.... on to lunch for all the kids... back to Gage and so on and so on. I don't want you to think that I'm complaining because I'm not it's just a very different and difficult way of life. Daniel and I talked about how can a family that has 6 kids does it.... or if they have more. I just don't know. We both decided that we are to selfish of people to want to have 6 kids and devote all of our time an energy to them. We want to be able to do things together just the two of us or be able to spend time individually with the kids not just herd them along. I gi...

So for those of you that didn't catch it on facebook or maybe you just want to hear about it again, I'm gonna write about Gage. Our new little boy that is exactly 19 days old today. Gage Patrick was due to be born on April 29th, but due to a potential heart issue that was discovered at a 34 week ultrasound things changed. Let me start this story by saying that very few people knew that we were expecting. Sure the people that saw me all the time knew but for my family and most of Daniel's family there were only a couple of people that knew. My biggest kick in life would be to call all of our family from the hospital and tell them that we had had a baby. Without a single word of warning prior. Three of Daniel's brothers knew because they travel way to much and we have always managed to be the middle of the road pit stop and so we get all of the wayward travelers in at our house. So some of them knew just from seeing me. I had also told Simone because I needed one of my si...

Would you believe me if I told you that my life is perfect?? Sure I have my little short comings that I have to work on but everytime I look out the window or stop and think about my life.... it's perfect. I have a wonderful husband that treats me better today than he did yesterday. I have 4 beautiful children that are truly a blessing from the Lord. We purchased a house this year that we could live and die in. We have a great ward, that have been amazing over the past couple of weeks. About the only thing to complain about is that I don't live close enough to my family. 5-7hrs drive is just to far away. Now that I've shared my mushy feelings I'm gonna let you in on a little secret. I'm afraid to blog. I've always kept a very personal and raw journal and I'm afraid that if I get into to much blogging that I may in fact share to much information on here. But we'll see. I'm gonna try to update a little more often.