Queen of my Domain

The kids wanted to help me make bread. So I let them help me mix the dough. Gage loved it! I love their little smiles!

I have battled my own form of self inflicted depression... essentially not allowing myself to find joy in things that I do because in my sub conscious mind I must not give any of my energy to anything other than tending to and rearing my children. This is even more brazen in my face when my husband is working away from home. I have been able to find some peace in my soul and with the help my Father in Heaven, some self reflection, and  Young Living Essential Oils , I've been able to feel like I can give some energy to things that bring me joy. Well tonight, after a week and a half of trying to find the things I wanted, I created a fall wreath for my house! I love it! My sister called me while I was working... I will confess that I was watching an Ashley Tisdale chick flick while I was crafting and I almost squealed with delight to tell her I was crafting!! It feels so great. So will out further adieu I present my new fall wreath!

Heavenly Father is good! I love Him. I trust Him and I know that He has my whole life in the palm of His hand. I had a rough  morning this morning and I decided that I'd better start my morning on my knees and what a difference it has made. I am grateful for the peace that he has given me as I gone through my day. God is good!

So after what seemed like a very long day today I was completely blind sided but my 10 year old. While trying to get the school year back on it's scheduled feet, I have washed and done the dishes Monday and Tuesday night mostly by myself. Tuesday night I had a little bit more help. That being said, last night we were done eating by 6 so I told the kids that I wasn't going to do dishes, that I had done them the last two nights. "Oh, you're so hard done by." said Aurora. I'm not sure what my face looked but I know how I felt inside. I was first very aghast and then I started to retaliate and then I just said I can't have this discussion right now and got up and left the kitchen. Now in the past I may have gotten very hot under the collar but last night I was hurt. Very very hurt. On Tuesday night I had mentioned, whilst doing the dishes with Aurora and Rayann, that carrying a baby is very difficult it's hard on the body and makes it hard to do other t

 Miss Rayann, off to grade 3 this year! Can't believe how quick they are growing.  Her awesome dress.... she has been dying to wear it.  Aurora starting grade 5.  She wanted to dress like a cow girl. Love her fashion. All the munchkins, Felicity starts kindergarten next year.

So I've read a few posts on a few blogs that I follow about how successful or not successful their summers were. I feel like we haven't even started ours yet. I could take two whole more months to play with my family. Again I have to admit that I am the worst at making sure the camera is catching what fun we are having but we did have fun and we did make memories. The summer was quiet and fun and laid back. Exactly how I love it to be. We did not make it out camping but we had other fun things that we did. I did learn that boy are just dirt with mud on them! Quite literally, here is Gage helping dig the potatoes last night.  I love his grubby little hands in the mud. He was trying to dig without a shovel. "Just let me do it Dad!" We ended up with about 40 lbs of potatoes and we dug our carrots as well, (don't ask) we figure we got about 15lbs of carrots as well! I'm very pleased with my garden this year. 

I successfully grew cucumbers this year. I wish I lived somewhere hotter so they would grow faster. I get a cucumber about every 4 days or so. Not fast enough for our family.  My tomatoes did really well and I've harvested quite a few, but I must admit. I cheated because I bought plants that were already 3 feet tall, with fruit on them. But hey. As I become more confidant in my abilities to grow tomatoes I will grow more!!! Ahh, gardening. I love going out ever morning and checking on things. Seeing what needs to be harvested and watering and pruning and even the weeding!!

So I supper all planned for last night. We were going to make Kabobs, turned out I didn't have any sticks, it was after 5 and I wasn't heading out again. So we're having Kabobs tonight. So pizza it was for the first supper of the summer holidays. We had a movie night, which we were done by 7:30. I asked the girls if they wanted to go to bed or do something else. Of course they said, 'do something else' so I took them all outside and headed for the garden. We did some weeding, some planting and all around got muddy. It was a lot of fun. I even had Aurora tell me that she really likes gardening...... who knew?! I was kinda beaming that my kids AND I enjoyed some gardening last night before bed. We didn't make it back in until 9:30. It was a great night!

I've had the opportunity to be touched by the spirit today. I've read a few friends blogs and I think all to often we forget that others struggle, we struggle, everyone has a struggle of some sort that they are working on. We live in a highly social society (social media and such) and yet we live very lonely lives. I think we allow very few people in to the 'inner sanctum' if you will, and that leaves us lonely and vulnerable. I have an amazing sister that I talk to every day. (well it used to be every day but summer gardens and us both with 4 kids every day sometimes is only twice a week) I can tell her anything, she knows my deep dark secrets, as does my husband but other than that, only some people know some things. Why do we guard ourselves so much? Why are we afraid of seeking help from others that might be able to give guidance or ever comfort on our own struggles and trials? I was touched by those that have opened theirs doors a little wider and have allowed

Rainbow cake and rainbow balloon arch, I made myself.... I must add. It was for Felicity's 4th birthday! We sure had fun!!

So after Christmas, I had cleaned and put away all the decorations and I left the top of my piano and my mantel (which is behind the piano) bare. They were bare for over 2 months, I finally decided at the beginning of March that I needed to do something so I hunted Pinterest and a few blogs for ideas on what I could do and this is what I came up with. It sure made me feel like I could accomplish something. My sister even said that I was channeling my in Martha Stewart! Ha! so funny. I just wanted to post it here.